as long as i'am

Wew...udah lama banget ga nulis blog...3 bulan lebih...jadi aneh rasanya...bingung mau ngomong apa. Hehe...
Di mulai dari kepulangan magangku di TRANSTV Jakarta selama 3 bulan kemaren yang So Rocks dan So experinces. Lalu kegaduhan hidup gara-gara laporan magang, sidang, dan revisinya, sekarang sudah agak lega malah dengan "nothing to do" alias "ga lapo-lapo" alias "sedang nganggur".
Boleh dibilang actually puncak perjuanganku selama kuliah ini justru akan segera di mulai. Menjelang akhir tahun ini mengindikasikan bahwa semester depan aku harus "ngebut" membuat proposal seminar skripsi dan persiapan skripsi. Wow...time go run so fastly...dan sampai sekarang aku malah belum kepikiran tentang judulnya...Ougghhh...its not good >_<

Recently, sempet berpikir hal yang aneh-aneh dan out of focus..Seharusnya aku memprioritaskan diri untuk fokus utamaku yaitu lulus kuliah dulu dengan tepat waktu dan mempunyai harapan besar lulus aktif-berprestasi dan cumlaude..(nothing is imposibble i think^^) But, akhir-akhir ini malah pikiranku lari kesana kemari.. Kadang-kadang berpikir mau cari beasiswa S2 ke luar negeri dan long stay disana (mpe udah tanya2 BAKP segala.hihi^^), terus pernah juga gencar cari kerja at least partime lah untuk mengisi waktu luang dan tambah-tambah uang jajan ( so far ya mayan lah walo ga byk), pernah juga merana gara2 jadi gadis kesepian tanpa pacar dan barusan broken heart (tp klo ini sih situasional yach, fokusnya sudah ga kesini lagi kog.Tenang saja.hahaha..^o^), dan sampai kini masih saja aku hanya bersenang-senang, hang out almost everyday with some closer friends (thx dude^^), just having fun dengan tanpa memikirkan tujuan masa depan ku atau fokusku yang sesungguhnya.

SEHARUSNYA TIDAK SEPERTI ITU!!! STOP IT....

Back On Track and FoCuSSsss...........................

Berline u should understand and manage ur time wisely. Have well Self Management and Self Acceptances....
Bcoz needs sacrifaces to get the success....NO GUTS NO GLORY.......
Menunda kesenangan untuk mendapatkan hasil yang maksimal...
Semua pikiran yang "ngalor-ngidul" tadi bole-bole aja asal bener2 di Manage...okay....

Oh...GOd....i thanx to get d best evrything in my life i wish i could make u see how much i love u...
BLessing me and Cheers me Up....^o^//

- Just LoVely BeRLine......................

"Broken-Hearted Girl"

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl


-Beyonce Knowles-